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About Varied / Hobbyist Erin Kathleen McCrate (Turnbill)25/Female/United States Group :iconxcccp: xCCCP
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Geoffroy body stock 04 by Fumei-Kara
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jump short dress by jl-modelstock jump short dress :iconjl-modelstock:jl-modelstock 2,019 136 STOCK - Standing Compilation 1 by LaLunatique STOCK - Standing Compilation 1 :iconlalunatique:LaLunatique 2,375 132 Attuann 27 by Tasastock Attuann 27 :icontasastock:Tasastock 1,982 204 Professional widow by xn3ctz Professional widow :iconxn3ctz:xn3ctz 1,473 175 long dress by jl-modelstock long dress :iconjl-modelstock:jl-modelstock 2,501 126 I'm So Interested, Please Tell Me More by SenshiStock I'm So Interested, Please Tell Me More :iconsenshistock:SenshiStock 1,797 250 Sitting Legs Crossed Pose for Drawing Reference by SenshiStock Sitting Legs Crossed Pose for Drawing Reference :iconsenshistock:SenshiStock 2,218 170 Sitting Stock Pack 2 by RobynRose Sitting Stock Pack 2 :iconrobynrose:RobynRose 7,433 279 291214  | DNF Christmas ~ by auurium 291214 | DNF Christmas ~ :iconauurium:auurium 8 1 Pixel Fonts pack by ephyreia Pixel Fonts pack :iconephyreia:ephyreia 101 5 floral II by jl-modelstock floral II :iconjl-modelstock:jl-modelstock 319 20 Socialist Realism Poster by neofotistou Socialist Realism Poster :iconneofotistou:neofotistou 51 24 Triptych by teopa Triptych :iconteopa:teopa 16 3 Garnet Elven Bangle by sparkfairy Garnet Elven Bangle :iconsparkfairy:sparkfairy 10 0 LION by Ryohei-Hase LION :iconryohei-hase:Ryohei-Hase 1,015 23




The Apostle of Truth by selfregion The Apostle of Truth :iconselfregion:selfregion 162 27 Hunger by nicktheartisticfreak Hunger :iconnicktheartisticfreak:nicktheartisticfreak 107 18 I am reborn by selfregion I am reborn :iconselfregion:selfregion 242 33 Tough Angel by e-c-h Tough Angel :icone-c-h:e-c-h 35 19 too late by nicktheartisticfreak too late :iconnicktheartisticfreak:nicktheartisticfreak 1,512 367 Relics by Sya Relics :iconsya:Sya 36 12 machina obscenia by killbabykill
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Children Of Hallow's Eve by kittynn Children Of Hallow's Eve :iconkittynn:kittynn 637 202


There's a deeper question to "What do I want to draw" than simply trying to suss out what to put down on paper. How do I convey something authentic to myself and yet not beleaguered by conventional themes and motifs? I don't have an answer. I stop myself short so often because I have become so over cautious of my audience and my own self-criticism. I don't know how to remedy that. I haven't been able to finish anything for six years because of that. I don't know where to go from there. I've come back to art recently, seeing if she'll invite me in at the door, perhaps; faithless though I was. It is all I have left. I am permanently disabled, house-bound and I feel like my mental illness caught all the elements of who I was before six years ago and set fire to them. I think the pyre is out, and yet I am anxious for my loss and what that means... I feel things growing but it's too early to know if they're familiar or foreign. Sometimes I don't even know what I enjoy, I try and watch one show, and realize immediately that it isn't scratching some itch, and then I'll change it to another show entirely, and five more times. I'll begin a drawing and become so frustrated at the aimlessness of it and the false sense of "What I want it to mean" eclipses my ability to sculpt out form and figure and value and color. By that point, about five minutes out from the start of my venture, the impression that people will dislike my work or misunderstand it presents itself, and then I close my sketch pad in disgust and hang my head in shame for a week. Increasingly I think before I see, and it was always my perception's priority that made me an artist.


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Erin Kathleen McCrate (Turnbill)
Artist | Hobbyist | Varied
United States
Hello, everyone. My name is Erin. I am twenty four years old. I have been drawing since I was two. You do the math.

I would strongly advise against trying to pin me down to dissect me. I might just dissect you in the process.


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mark45xxx Featured By Owner Dec 22, 2015
Love your work.
Mothboss Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you!
kardamonow Featured By Owner Sep 1, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
thank you very much for watch! Giggle 
Mothboss Featured By Owner Sep 29, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
No problem!
ashintherainbow Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2013
Thank you so much for the fave! :D
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FiebertraumArt Featured By Owner Jul 4, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
awesome gallery! thank you for the fav! :hug:
Mothboss Featured By Owner Jul 6, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
No problem! Thank you too! :)
LauraHolArt Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2013   Traditional Artist
Thank you for the fave :D
nancy-long-ago Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Thanks for the fave :)
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